My class of 2011, for you guys.

          

It's Fall 2011 now and it's time for me to focus on college, live on my own, and detach myself from my parents. I get nervous at the thought of growing up and having to do things on my own. It's this fear of not being able to do things right or just failing. But it's something that has to be done and even though I already know that there will be times when I'm ready to give up, I know I'm doing the right thing and that if I want to be successful, failure is something I will have to accept and learn from.

Now, my advise to you all is...

Whether you are going to a four year college, a community college, working, or simply waiting for time to pass in order for you to figure out what you want to do, remember what it is you are striving for. Life may or may not have a purpose, it's up to you to fill that in. Just don't forget why you are doing what it is you are doing, and let that serve as your motivation. Growing up may be more difficult for some than others, but experiencing a change is always a little hard to adapt to. You know when you change your toothbrush for a new one and it feels a little uncomfortable the first time you use it? Well many of us will feel like that our first time in college, work, or just not being in high school. But as the days go by, we start getting used to it and we begin to get in our comfort zone. I guess what I'm trying to tell you guys is that even though we're all doing something different, please don't follow, but chase that dream. It will all be worth it. And don't expect to get the easy way out. This isn't high school, we can't just pass around the answers now. Haha. Good times. Well best of luck to everyone and know that you can always talk to me for anything. You guys were a strong and determined group so I know you will reach and fulfill your goals. Hope to keep in touch with you all. I love you and miss guys so much.

Love, 

Fabiola Tucux

A smile will get you there

Well I think . . . that "No matter how black and white the world may seem, a S M I L E is enough to brighten the scene."

To my mom of course...

She caters. She cleans. She makes us a family. My mom, Lesly Tucux is my superwomen. I've never considered all she does for us, and now that I think of it, she's more than just an ordinary mom. She includes details and small suggestions that make a difference. When she makes dinner, she MAKES dinner. Food, dessert, drinks, sets the table, and receives us with a smile. As tight-knit as my family can be, dinner is the time when we relax, unwind, and reconnect with each other from out long day at school, and of course, work. When I consider all that she accomplishes in her day, I'm admired and I cannot believe after all she does, after her long, stressing day, she puts on a smile and shows us we're worth it. Her creative ways of catering to us are seen in her signature sugar cookies, her red velvet cupcakes with homemade icing, and her artistic table decorations. As i sit there watching The Simpsons at 6:30, the smell of her food starts to seep in through my windows and door, and I know she has once again made delicious heart-warming food. I've never actually thought about how much time and effort a dinner like hers takes. I'm too wrapped up in the delicious taste of it. I know it doesn't mean the world to anyone, but it does to me. Thank you Mom, for everything you do for us everyday, and for making us the family we are.

Destiny's Child - Independent Women Part I

Have a Nice Day

I wonder why they tell me to have a nice day. I've always seen this when I get Chinese food or Hawaiian food, but I never took the time to notice that they were wishing me "a nice day." Well I have this habit of always stabbing the container when I'm finished, but this was a coincidence. I mean look at how dramatic that looks! I grabbed the knife that was used to cut my chicken bathed in sauce, and I stabbed it into the container as I always do when I finish my food. Man, I had to take a picture. This made me realize that I don't give a shit about them wishing me a nice day. When I looked at this picture, it reminded me of life. Look at how I treated this wholesome message. Isn't that what most people do? Overlook the world's kindness and focus on all the negativity that surrounds us? We take advantage of what is handed to us...simply because, well, because it's just handed to us. No need to chase it or fight for it. Well, thank you container-making company, thank you for wishing me a nice day. I had a great day today.

First dayy of school in 2011

burgundy haired me!!

I woke up in the morning and though "Oh God, why do I need to keep doing this? I've been waking up early for school for 12 years already!" Then, for some odd reason I blow-dried my hair...it was nowhere near wet! I slipped my school khakis right on top of my pajamas because God knows it was too cold to get dressed. Anyways, I grabbed my daily bagel and hot chocolate with dad on my way to school and I spilled it on my shirt! Blah. Straight to 1st period, it was better than anticipated...surprisingly. We broke tooth-picks all period long and spoke of proteins unravelling when it gets too hot. I like the word "unravel". And 3rd period came around. English. AP Literature. Enough said. That teacher had the heater on so high, I thought my proteins were going to unravel! haha. On the bright side, EVERYONE LIKED MY BURGUNDY HAIR! Finally dyed my virgin hair and it was a success. Speaking of hair, my brother got this habit of wearing a beanie so his hair can be flat. I mean that kid even sleeps with the beanie on. Starting to get smelly now. But I'm just his older sister, I guess I can't force him to shower. I decided to skip "practice" today because, well...it's not practice. Then I came home to work on the AP calculus work I had two weeks to work on, BUT we all know Fabby and how she postpones all work. I'm finally finished and I plan to finish this blog and get some sleep because man I fell asleep until 2am yesterday.

Well 2010 was....

First of all, let me thank God and all the blessings that he gave my loved ones and me this year. Secondly, there obviously was the good, and the bad. But let's speak about the good shall we? I let go of something that was damaging something beautiful I had. And even though the past is always remembered, I can now gladly say "that was so last year" haha! Well, I was also blessed with a healthy nephew, Noah Garcia, whom I adore with all my heart and I welcomed to this world with smiles and hugs. I can't forget the birth of my baby cousin Jasmine Garcia as well. Ooh babies are too adorable. Well, I'm a senior now! YAY! Since September, I have studied my ass off and I plan to keep going if I'll be graduating with high honors this 2011. I can say my actions in 2010 have influenced my plans in 2011, not to call them "new year's resolutions," but since there is always room for improvement, I will make some changes. For example, procrastination. One of my worst habits, and all it has gotten me are all-nighters and sleepy mornings the next day. Not to mention the low test scores, but that is on another note. Man this might get long, but readers, you can stop here. I'm going to keep going simply because I love writing. Another thing I need to work on is my niceness. I get really impatient and then I go off on people without considering their feelings or thoughts. It gets worse with people who annoy me the most. But since I am realizing what needs work on, my attitude and consideration need work on and I will improve it. Hopefully. Speaking of realizations, since 2011 is my graduating year, I have thought of so many things that await me. College. New people, new environment, new mindset! It is overwhelming and down-right frightening. I feel I'm not ready to let go yet, but when would I be? I doubt I will ever expect what is yet to come. So right now, my emotions are mixed and cannot be described. I won't bother naming all and explaining why. All I can say is that I'm 17 now, and this is it. All I can do is prepare myself for the real life and accept it's realities. These are the last 30 minutes of 2010 and I have spent them writing my feeling. Just as I've done this whole year. If it weren't for writing, I don't know how else I would have let the world know how I feel and what has made me feel this way. Ha! The world! No one has ever read my writing, yet I feel I expressed myself more than I would have if I shouted it to the world! Overall, I thank God for all that has happened in 2010, no matter how harsh or difficult some conditions may have been, I have survived and I ask for nothing else but blessings and health for my loved ones and myself in 2011. HAPPY NEW YEARS!!